Golden Healing Art Process, Part 5, still in progress

I added a gold glaze to the entire picture to cover over where the clear gesso clumped together and wasn’t clear. It’s best not to use clear gesso over beads or anything bumpy…I thought I could be careful and wipe up the extra…after weeks it was still white certain places…but I think the gold took away a lot of my contrast so I need to put it back in. The clear gesso was added so that I could draw in more details with pens and pencils. I suppose I could go back over and add in more contrast and color, then it will be fine again. I feel like I created much more work for myself by doing that. It wasn’t a good move. Maybe I could add some dark, grayish blues in between the rain, but as a thin glaze, to give it more contrast? Maybe some white highlights on the rain? I plan to add more self leveling gel on it. The background is fun to work on. It’s the woman who is hard.

You can see I updated her below. I evened out her skin and took away the gray on her face. I added a flesh colored glaze because I didn’t want to lose all my blue tones for shading. Figures are hard for me. She is tiny, and my reference was tiny and blurry. I gave her more of a mouth. I probably need to blend in one cheek a bit more. That pink/red blush in her cheek was done with a stablio pencil. I fixed her eyes with a stablio pencil. I couldn’t get my brand new pencil sharpener to work right and make a sharp enough point. The lead kept breaking off in there, and I purchased the sharpener purposely for softer pencils after reading reviews and recommendations. That was frustrating!! It kind of took me out of the flow. Although, I’m not sure I ever got in a flow today. Otherwise, I am using acrylics with a medium to slow its drying time, and today, I added glazes only. I need to fix her arm. I tried going over the patchy highlighted area with more white, but it didn’t fix it, so I’m thinking I could cover over that area with black.

This is what she looks like now.

This is what she looked like before. The face was too gray. The skin was too patchy and uneven. See below.

This is what she used to look like.
This is what the background looked like before adding the gold glaze… I think it looks better here, so it’s like I worked against myself.

Oh well, I’ll get there. For me, it seems like I go back and forth. When I try to improve something, I make something else worse. You would think with all my years of practice that things would come easier for me, but they don’t. It always feels like a struggle. Well, not always. Sometimes, the pure abstracts come easily. I think the struggle reflects the struggles in my personal life, and once those are fixed, maybe suddenly, things will be easier for me. Also, this struggle is most likely related to my past sexual abuse. That’s the subject matter in this painting, which makes it harder, but Im not struggling as much as the painting where Im stepping on the snake…not posted about yet. I hope it will come easier eventually.. I admire other artists who seem to flow so well with less struggle, who seem to labor much less than me.

You can see the painting’s progression below:

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3:

Part 4:

Published by creativecassandra7

God-lover, artist, writer, art therapist, dreamer, minister. I see life as an adventure of overcoming and bringing light to dark places. I have overcome extensive trauma and sexual abuse and now I share my testimony and teach/preach what God has to say about the recovery process through both logos and rhema words. I love nature, dancing, worship, and all creative expressions. I have a heart to see families restored, curses reversed, and generational blessings released.

2 thoughts on “Golden Healing Art Process, Part 5, still in progress

  1. I really understand this feeling. But I think being brave enough to try something out of the ordinary also makes room for “happy accidents” or the discovery of something we wouldn’t have found otherwise. Always the encouragement to trust the process. Your art is so full of depth and meaning and it is evident th

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