The House of Cards is Falling

The House of Cards is Falling, digital mixed media by Cassandra Donnelly

I woke up to a series of prophetic dreams this morning. I was drifting in and out of sleep, but each time I entered sleep the Lord would utter a phrase to me. I would wake up to jot it down only to fall asleep with another phrase. This went on for four different phrases until I finally woke up and received a prophetic word of the Lord.

Dream:

God said the news and media are full of “exaggeration, hyperbole, and lies.”

God can “bring good out of any situation.”

“It’s a war of propaganda.”

“The House of Cards is Falling.”

Prophetic word: God says:

Focus on me so truth and supply can come. Provision is coming for my people. Don’t be afraid for I am with you. I am cleansing and clearing out the deck of cards (evil propaganda, agendas, plans, institutions, and establishments.) My mercy and favor will come to those that love me and follow after me. Choose this day whom you will serve. For I am good, and my mercy endures forever. I am faithful, kind, and just. My desire is to rescue all those imprisoned and set the captives free. I want not one to perish, but I will not allow this evil cancer to continue growing. My justice is here. It is wiping out the filth and bringing it down on their heads. It will collapse on itself. Get out of the way of evil. Do good. Walk in righteousness. I want to save you and set you free from the curse of the law. The law demands justice, and justice is here. My justice will be swift. Those that are with me are not under the law, but under grace. Do not claim to know me and to continue practicing lawlessness for I will say you do not know me. Those that know me do my will and follow after me. My sheep hear my voice. It is not too late to repent of your sins and follow after me. I am a good Shepherd and will lead you to safe pasture. Follow my instructions so that I can protect you and bring provision and supply. I am coming with a fierce love to set my captives free of oligarchs and wicked leaders in high places. You shall no longer be ruled by tyranny but by my mercy and justice. The blood of the innocent cries out to me. For many have unjustly lost their lives-men, women, children, and babies in the womb. I come to bring justice renewal, and recompense for my people. For all that was stolen I am bringing restoration and recompense. For the world as you know it is turning upside down and imploding in on itself. But in the midst of that I am coming to raise up new structures of righteousness where my glory will pour out like a constant river. I am rebuilding the ancient foundations and restoring my people. I am restoring hope and rebuilding the ruined desolations. I am rebuilding families, churches, and communities. My power is here and my love is real. It is tangible. It will show itself. Do not be afraid my people for I am with you not against you. I love you with an everlasting love which will never be put out. My love is all consuming. My love is here to set you free!

Isaiah 61-NIV

The Year of the Lord’s Favor

1 The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed  me
to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up  the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom  for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners,
to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor
 and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion—to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor.They will rebuild the ancient ruins and restore the places long devastated; they will renew the ruined cities that have been devastated for generations.Strangers will shepherd your flocks; foreigners will work your fields and vineyards.And you will be called priests of the Lord, you will be named ministers of our God. You will feed on the wealth of nations, and in their riches you will boast.Instead of your shame you will receive a double portion,
and instead of disgrace you will rejoice in your inheritance. And so you will inherit  a double portion in your land, and everlasting joy will be yours.“For I, the Lord, love justice; I hate robbery and wrongdoing. In my faithfulness I will reward my people and make an everlasting covenant with them. Their descendants will be known among the nations and their offspring among the peoples. All who see them will acknowledge that they are a people the Lord has blessed.”10 I delight greatly in the Lord; my soul rejoices in my God.
For he has clothed me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in a robe of his righteousness, as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.11 For as the soil makes the sprout come up and a garden causes seeds to grow, so the Sovereign Lord will make righteousness
and praise spring up before all nations.

Psalms 102 Ministries: 3rd Workshop: “Believe.”

We had a great time at our 3rd Psalms 102 ministries workshop which occurred on March 5, 2022! We had 7 people show up, compared to 4 the first time. It is growing slowly, but surely as people tell others about their experiences. God is moving, healing, and encouraging hearts which is so amazing to see and experience!

For those who don’t know, Psalms 102 Ministries’ purpose is to educate the church community on how to treat people with mental health challenges, afflictions, and addictions, etc, as well as to intercede for our loved ones who have such challenges. There are many of us at the River Room Church who have loved ones who are suffering.

The title of the 3rd workshop is called, “Believe.” In this workshop we looked at some scriptures related to God’s sovereignty and his ability to change hearts. He can harden or soften a heart. We talked about the story of Pharaoh and how God hardened his heart. We questioned the interplay between our will and God’s will; how God doesn’t take away free will but yet knows the beginning from the end and can see what we will decide and hence plan and control accordingly. We looked at how this might apply to our loved ones lives who may not be cooperating with God to receive healing or deliverance. We looked at instances in the Bible where God orchestrated circumstances to bring about His will and get people back into alignment with His will. This can apply to people or nations. We looked at the story of Hosea and also Jonah as it relates to God bringing about supernatural, divine intervention to bring hearts back to Him and into alignment with His will. We also talked about how God can heal our young children, adult children, family members, loved ones, friends, acquaintances, and even strangers whether near or far away just simply because we ask Him and believe. We looked at some stories where Jesus healed people’s children as well as other’s based on request, regardless of whether their faith was great or little or whether or not they felt worthy enough to receive or not; and even whether the person who needed the healing was present or not to receive. We also looked at many, many different scriptures which illustrated that God healed and delivered everyone who asked. We also looked at the story of Mary Magdeline and how she was used by God after being delivered from 7 demons! We looked at all these stories and scriptures to raise our faith to believe that we can ask God to heal and deliver our loved one/s and really receive it; that God is powerful enough and sovereign enough to work in the most difficult situation to bring about the healing. God loves us and God loves the people we love too. He loves everyone, and it is His will that no one should perish, and everyone should come come into His kingdom to receive the fullness and healing that He provides. He will move Heaven and the Earth to make it happen!

Here is the video teaching.

After the teaching we soaked for about 30 minutes while Lisa White played soothing music on the keyboards. Those of you who want to do this part can find some of your own soothing music to listen to although I provide an example at the end of this post. We invited God to speak to us and encourage us about our particular situation with our loved one/s. We actually had a pen and paper on hand to write down what we heard, sensed, or saw. We called it a love letter from God.

The spirit of God was moving, and He led me to pray over everyone in the room. Hearts were touched by God. Many cried and received much needed encouragement or a dose of inner healing from God.

Following this, we created a card to tuck the love letter from God into which incorporated themes and encouragement from the love letter.

We decorated the card with stamps, stencils, permanent markers, gel pens, watercolors, oil pastels, washi, stickers, embellishments, ribbons, etc. The idea of the card was to have something tangible that we could look at whenever we get discouraged which would remind us of the promises that God gave to us concerning our loved one/s.

Here are some photos from the workshop.

If you are interested into doing the art activity here are some instructions below.

Encouragement Card/Love letter from God.

Supplies needed:

-A blank card.

-Various art materials (whatever you have on hand or want to buy.)

-Ribbon

You can actually buy some blank cards at Michael’s (or any other place that sells blank cards or craft items) which you can paint or decorate, or you could create the kind of tuck card we used with watercolor paper.

Directions for the tuck card: I cut out some watercolor paper to make a long 11x 4 inch strip. Follow along the pictures in order to make the card. A hole puncher will be helpful to have nearby. Fold the right end about 4.25 inches up and towards the left to form the card. It doesn’t have to be precise, but you don’t want it to meet the other end exactly even because the left end is going to create a flap for your right end to tuck under, and we don’t want that end over too far so that it does not get hole punched when we create the flap. If it does go too far and gets hole-punched you can always go back and trim it. The idea is that one side of the card will be able to tuck under the other side to hold it in place. See the photos. Then you’re going to fold about 1.5 inches of your left end towards the right. This will create the tuck. It should just cover your other end of the card by maybe a quarter of an inch so that side can tuck under it. Then you will put 2 hole punches in the vertical middle of the left edge of the left side…but just slightly away from the edge. The two hole punches will be where you put pretty ribbon or yarn to hold the card flap down.

Next, you will want to decorate your card. Try to pay attention to where the front and back of the card are as well as the inside and the outside when you decorate because a lot of people get confused about this. The flap is folded over on the front. That is your front. I used watercolor paint to give the card some pretty color. A cool trick is to get your paper wet by brushing it with water and then drop colors of watercolor on it. If you add salt to the watercolor paint while its wet, then wipe off the salt in the trash when its dry, it will create a cool effect of texture and lighter spots where the salt was. We used various stamps and stencils, but if you don’t have any, its ok. You can just draw a design or simply write words or phrases on your card or cut and paste words or pictures from magazines or things you print out. You could even keep it plain for your letter. It will be pretty enough alone with just the watercolor paint and the ribbon. If you don’t like paint you could glue pieces of scrap booking paper on the card or even tissue paper. There is no right or wrong way to make your card. We also used different stickers and stick-on embellishments from the Dollar Tree such as butterflies and flowers, etc. They usually have such things in the craft section. I even used washi tape on the edge of where my paper folded, but that totally is not necessary. We used clear glitter fabric paint last over certain areas to add a little pizzazz. I always recommend you use the fabric paint last because it takes awhile to dry. Well, next to last. When everything is finished and dry you can add a pretty ribbon. Each end of the ribbon will come through the two holes from the back so that it will tie in the front. You could tie it in a bow or simply let it hang. The ribbon will keep your flap down so that the other end of your card can tuck under.

Here is some soaking music we listened to while creating:

Psalms 102 Ministries: 1st Workshop, Intro and Preparing the Heart

Video portion of 1st Psalms 102 Ministries workshop called “Preparing the Heart.”

On February 5, 2022 the first workshop of Psalms 102 Ministries began. It is being held at River Room Church, 4524 Wishart Road, Virginia Beach, VA every 1st and 3rd Saturday of the month at 3pm. It is being led by myself and Wendi Nixon. Both of us are experienced mental health care providers. I will lead the first Saturday and Wendi will lead the 3rd.

Psalm 102 Ministries is a ministry to educate the church on how to best respond to people with mental health challenges, and we will also be interceding for our loved ones or others who are struggling with mental health challenges, afflictions, or addictions, etc.

This first workshop is called, “Preparing the Heart.”

In this video I explain how the ministry came about; share a little of my testimony; briefly explain some statistics and problems with mental health challenges in our society; give both a biological/medical and spiritual explanation of the mental suffering; and raise your faith to believe in healing and deliverance for your loved one and family.

The video just shows the teaching, but doesn’t include the soaking or the art activity. Those of you who are watching and want to get a fuller experience can listen to the soaking music on your own. The links will be below. I played soaking music to meditate on related to receiving from God in this area. This can’t be show on you tube during the filming.

This is the song we soaked to. Its called, “Too Good to Not Believe” by Cody Carnes. It’s a beautiful song which will raise your faith. Listen closely to the words!

Preparing the Heart art activity:

Side note: If you haven’t done so already, I recommend you watch the video first followed by the soaking to the Cody Carnes song to get a fuller experience before starting the art activity.

Following the soaking, your faith can be activated to receive by creating and decorating a heart with the loved one’s name that you want to intercede for.

Supplies needed:

Cardboard or foam heart in any size, but we used approximately 9×8 inches. I used something to trace onto my foam board so I could get a bunch of same sized hearts. The traceable heart can be made by first folding a regular thin piece of paper in half and drawing a half heart on it extending from the folded edge. Then cut on the line of your half heart drawing and open your paper so it makes a full heart. This is the best way to get it even. You could also trace a wooden heart decoration or candy box onto your foam or cardboard instead of using a drawn heart on a piece of paper. Just keep in mind that you want your heart to be big enough to add scriptures, words, and decorations to it. Then once you have your heart traced onto your foam piece cut it out. I recommend using an exacto knife. You can get the foam board at the Dollar Tree where the posters usually are. Walmart should have it too, or you could cut out some cardboard from a box you have laying around the house.

Words, phrases, and scriptures: You can look through magazines and cut out words, phrases, or pictures that are meaningful; or you can print out words or scriptures you type up or copy and paste; or you could print out word clouds that you find on Google that relate to the topic of healing, salvation, or deliverance, or whatever else applies. If you don’t have access to a color printer you can print it out in black ink and color it yourself. You also literally can hand write out your words and scriptures onto separate pieces of paper to cut out and glue onto your heart or directly write onto your heart. You can also include picture art of scriptures. I had a little bit of everything prepared.

Decorations and embellishments: These are the decorations such as stickers, gems, collectibles, letters, beads, ribbons, yarns, buttons, washi tape, etc etc. Most all of the decorations I got were from the Dollar Tree. They have a nice craft section with all kinds of stickers, gems, butterflies, etc. I have been collecting a little bit at a time. They even have washi tape there.

Marking materials: permanent markers, geli pens, painters pens, fabric paint, etc. Of course this can be found at any craft store, but you can also find such items at the Dollar Tree or Walmart. Regular markers or colored pencils or crayons even will work, too, I just think you will have better results with the permanent markers and you can paint over them, too, because they are water proof. Also the gel pens mark well on a variety of surfaces. Fabric paint should be used last if you do use it because it takes awhile to dry. I like the clear white crystals fabric paints which allow you to make a clear, shiny, glittery glaze over many items. Keep in mind the thicker the fabric paint is after applying the longer it will take to dry; so if you write a word, for example, in fabric paint it could take several hours to dry. Also, I would only try to use it for large print or writing, nothing fine print or you might be disappointed. You want to use it last so you do not accidentally smear it while continuing to work.

Glue/adhesives: modge podge, regular craft glue, Elmer’s, even generic school glue will work. You probably only need one kind although you could use a craft glue for heavier items and modge podge or Elmer’s for lighter items, but honestly it all should work as long as what you’re gluing is not too heavy. I preferred modge podge for this project because it’s versatile, and you can get it in glossy or matt. Again any of these glues can be found at any craft store, Walmart, or Dollar Tree.

Craft paper/scap-booking paper/watercolor paper: You can use what you have on hand or what you can afford to buy. I liked to use scrap-booking paper glued onto of the heart before adding the other items, but its not necessary. You could also use watercolor paper and just paint it. I used some scrap watercolor paper which I painted for some of my words. The scrap booking paper can be found at Walmart, Michael’s or most craft stores. It could cost anywhere between $5-25 depending on the type of paper or how much is in the booklet. You can buy individual pieces at Michael’s for about a $1 if you don’t want to buy a whole pack. I did both sides of my heart, but that’s not necessary either.

Watercolor paints are optional. I used them to paint over words I wrote myself in permanent markers.

Directions: First ask God who you should make the art for. You may have more than one loved one who needs prayer and intercession. It is possible to combine several loved ones into one heart, but it might be easier to focus on one person at a time; then you could make it more specific to them. It just depends on your needs and situation. Just ask God. If there is more then one person you want to intercede for you could make them another heart or just focus on the next person on the next project. Try not to overwhelm yourself. God is good and gracious and not a slave master. This isn’t supposed to be hard or stressful, but fun! We are co-laboring with God! Instead of just making a decree or declaration with our mouth, we are making a decree with our heart art and it is very powerful to do that. You will feel your whole body, heart, and soul come into alignment with this task and even both sides of your brain! You will also probably feel the Holy Spirit minister to you personally while you’re making the art, and He may bring up emotions, awareness, revelation, or inner healing to you about your particular situation with your loved one.

We actually did the art while soaking to the music below. It is Julie True and it is one hour of soaking music starting with Heaven’s Embrace song. You could try it or play something else you love. I think the soaking music really helps you get into a good head space to receive and hear from God and co-labor with Him.

Side note: If there are things distracting you at the moment or if you are being pulled into many different directions consider waiting to do this part until your time can be uninterrupted with God. Depending on your own art style, it could take between 1-2 hours, maybe even 3 if you go over the top! At least allow yourself a 1 hour block that’s not interrupted. You can always finish touching it up later even with the distractions. Just give yourself one hour for you and God to be alone with this and God to minister to you. I think you will benefit more that way.

Next ask God for a word/s or scripture/s for this person. I used the scripture as a centerpiece for my heart art. God might suggest several scriptures or several words.

The idea is to decorate the heart with all your supplies, words, and scriptures while praying and declaring what you want for your loved one.

The first thing I recommend you do is trace your heart on your scrap-booking paper if you’re going to use it. Then cut it out and glue it down on to your heart. As I said before you could glue down watercolor paper as well. Honestly, you could skip this part too if you wanted. I just personally like the look of it better with the decorative paper glued down first.

I had a rough edge around my heart from not using the exact knife perfectly so I put washi tape around my edges over both sides. No one in my workshop did that, and all their hearts looked nice, so its up to you.

Although you could start immediately gluing or writing words on your heart, I recommend that you gather all the words and decorations that you want first. Cut out your words or prepare them first on separate sheets of paper which you can cut out and glue down. If you wait to glue items down you could try different arrangements first to see what you like best or what will fit where.

So now you will just be arranging the words, phrases, scriptures, and decorations in ways you find pleasing and gluing them down onto your heart. Try to stay in communication with God. Keep an open dialog with God about what you want for this loved one while you’re creating and what God wants for this person, and even your relationship with this person. As you create your words, scriptures, and phrases pray these things into existence over your loved one!!! Let God lead you in the art and minister to you while you’re creating. You might be surprised to find that God does minister to you. Many people in the workshop found that the activity brought some inner healing and revelation to them as well.

When you get done you can study it to see what you notice. Does anything stand out to you? Did God show you anything? How did you feel? You may even consider journaling your response to this activity.

Here are some examples and pictures from our workshop! We only had 4 people come to our first one.

Personal Updates

Missing in Action: Hi. Well, it’s been a while. Honestly, I have trouble managing all my accounts, but I did create this blog for a reason, and I do enjoy writing…so I need to get back into it. I’ve been slightly more active at my Creative Passages Facebook site, but I need to be more active here, too, and that is a goal for the new year.

I’m always making art…that never seems to stop, although that has slowed down some as well.

So let me catch you up here. I bought a house in July which was my first house ever at age 52! It’s a half mile from the beach which has always been something I dreamed of, to be by the beach! I call it “Joy Bloom Cottage!” Buying a home may be a normal occurrence for most people, and I know I’m behind at age 52, but because of the life I’ve lived, the trauma I’ve endured, and the various struggles I’ve encountered as a single mother and as a divorcee, that is quite an accomplishment for me personally! I’ve had to work my way up from poverty to solid middle class. I had to break off the poverty mindset, get my finances and credit in order, etc. Tonight, I don’t feel like going into all the details of the things I’ve had to overcome, but let’s just say that I’ve faced potential homelessness at least 4 times. Perhaps at another time I’ll share more of my personal story. I finally have a place I can call my home. I finally no longer have to worry about how my bills will be paid. God brought me my house in the nick of time, too, because the cost of rent is something I no longer could afford, even with a middle class income. The cost of living is too much, and my heart constantly cries out for God to fix this for all of us because too many people are struggling. Too many can’t afford the cost of living. It did take me 3 years to find a house in my price range. God pulled a few miracles like only He does, and right after I left my previous apartment rent went from $850 to $1300 a month! My mortgage is only $1115.50. I love my house! For the first time I’d rather just be at home, then go places or eat at a restaurant. Don’t get me wrong, I still like going places, but I love the atmosphere at my house now. I thank God often. It feels like I’ve stepped into my promised land. Now this is one reason I’ve been behind on my art and writing…setting up my new home.

My house in the snow.

Alot of my art making went towards my house, decorating it. I always make new art whenever I move into a new place. Then after that, there was birthday present art and holiday gift art. So many of my friends and family received art! I didn’t do a good job of taking pics or scans prior to giving it away.

The best part of my new place…well one of the best things, is that I do have an art studio. It’s an art shed…and well, it looks like a shed just yet. I did have a whole other new shed built just so I can place extra storage and garden tools in there and clear out space in my art shed, but the roof needs to be made water proof because water leaks in where the screws are. Once that happens I can begin to move non-art stuff in there. My art shed is crowded and not very pretty right now. There’s not alot of working room, but it’s more then I did have working out of a closet in my room with a small foldable table at my old apartment. It’s nice having things all be right there, and not having to take 5 boxes out of my closet to get to the one at the bottom, but I’m still getting annoyed with it being too crowded so I can’t wait to get it set up…maybe by this summer-is my goal. Spring would be even better!! Right now, it’s too cold to mess with it. And by the way, it snowed!

Me and my gradaughter, Lilah, playing in the snow tonight around 7:30pm.
My snow angel.
Lilah, age 8, playing in the snow.

We are enjoying a beautiful snowy landscape in Norfolk, Virginia. First of all, it doesn’t snow often here, and when it does, it usually melts right away, but it has stuck around a few days.

I do have two big shelve systems to set up in the shed. I can’t wait to get everything spread out and available within reach. Eventually, once everything is organized, I want to set up an etsy shop.

Work has me busy as well. The Pandemic just really sucked up my time. Sterilization of the art supplies that I use to provide art therapy groups added extra to my time. Also there’s been more patients just because the pandemic has been so stressful and hard on everyone, and aside of that we are expanding as a psychiatric hospital! I find myself working about 50 hour weeks just to complete all the notes and cleaning everything required. Then of course, there’s my family who still live with me, house work, and church, etc, etc. Most importantly, I still find time to make with God, which is absolutely essential to me. It’s like I can’t survive without God, and the success of my life is very much dependent on God, and my ability to hear him and submit to him.

Aside of all that, in October, I finished up my 1st year of my Five Fold Ministry class and School of the Prophets class. I got recognized for the gift of evangelism. That surprised me. The 2nd year of classes have just started although now its twice a month instead of every week, which makes it a little easier!

I do want to write more, keep up with my art more, and find more time for my blog/vblog, etc.

I’ve been in a time of deep soul searching and introspection as well. Things have shifted for me a bit as an artist. I was moving into live prophetic art worship painting events, etc, prior to the pandemic and did have some workshops I could also take part in, and that brought with it opportunities to be exposed more, sell more, etc. Since then, I have not focused on marketing or selling. That in itself is a big job to take on. God has something new on the horizon for me, though, and for me it’s huge!

So probably in February I will be leading my own intercessory workshop. There has been a ton of people at my small church who have family members with mental illness, along with myself and my own family members. I feel like I’m about 85% recovered from trauma (sexual abuse) and PTSD, but aside of that I do have multiple people in my family who have suffered from depression, alcoholism, eating disorders, OCD, anxiety, panic disorder, ADHD, Autistic Spectrum Disorder, etc. The goal is to educate the church on how these people (the mentally ill and those suffering from various afflictions) should be treated by the church and also to intercede for them through prayer. I want to incorporate tongues and art, too. Maybe dancing as well. I have been attending tongues workshops done by my friend Corinna for the past year or two, and tongues are a powerful tool, especially for intercession.

Me and my friend, Corinna, at Norfolk Botanical Garden a couple of weeks ago.

I’m really excited to be leading the workshop, and to maybe lead others into using art as an intercessory tool. I have been using art as intercession in my own life for the past 2 years, maybe. I’m praying about the best way to go about it, or if the art part should be incorporated in every class or just occasionally. The best part is that I didn’t pursue this opportunity myself. I was just asked to do it. It just fell into my lap, but maybe as a result of my heart and what people know about it. The catalyst was a bipolar woman who visited our church and other churches from out of state and although she was treated well at my church, she was not treated well at other churches. This really upset the Lord, and I mentioned it to a friend who became part of our church board, and that friend then had the idea for this class, which my pastor not only agreed to, but became excited about. He wants to give me a ministry license maybe after a year of doing these classes if I do a good job. The other classes also put me on track for a ministry license, and even though I don’t technically need them to get my license because my pastor intends to ordain me eventually, I just want to expand and stretch myself spiritually. The classes I am leading will be once a month. Another friend, named Wendi Nixon, I will be coordinating with, will also be leading the class once a month, but at opposite times, that way there will be this class/workshop occurring every two weeks. Aside of the bipolar woman, I think the Lord planted the urge to reconcile this problem (of how certain people groups were treated in church) in me throughout the years as I also encountered people/religious leaders, who seemed to exacerbate my trauma or fuel my rejection issues, etc., by not understanding how trauma works or how people heal. So many people believe that trauma survivors can just believe God nailed their past to the cross and that they can just forget all about it and will no longer suffer from it, when it seemed very evident to me that healing was more a process of God renewing my mind versus a one time event, and in fact those that believed it to be a one time event still seemed to be suffering, in denial or avoidance mode, and projecting issues onto others. I often felt judged, and maybe somehow thought to myself that I want to address this someday. Although I have family members still suffering (and I’m not at liberty to go into details because of privacy concerns and needs of said family members), I feel strongly that this next year and this new era we are going into will very much see a focus on deliverance and inner healing. God’s given me so many prophetic words about that. I think God wants us to be contending for this and believing for this!!

Which brings me to my next point. I feel like I do have a strong prophetic gifting, and most likely, I am walking in the office of a prophet, although not to my full measure yet. Only time will tell, but I strongly suspect this. Although I’ve been taking the School of the Prophet class and am going on my 2nd year, I was activated in the prophetic I think around 2005, so I’ve had some time to grow into it. I’ve only been told I held the prophetic office once and told I had a prophetic mantle one other time, but I believe God will make room for the gifts. My pastor, Ray Boetcher, does recognize this gift in me. I really love him for seeing all the gifts in me and making me feel loved and appreciated. He not only does this for me, but for all of us in the church. I’ve been asking God to bring me money to help build the church. I started investing in stocks in 2020 (outside of my retirement) and crypto too since last year. I go to a really small non-denominational, spirit-filled church called the Riverroom church. It’s a five fold church and our pastor really believes in equipping all the Saints to move in their giftings! So with that said, and having been exploring all my giftings through my classes, I’ve also been really examining my heart and inner motives. I’ve been trying to figure out what does God want me to do with this gift exactly? I’m exploring my need for approval and also my fear of man, two alternative motives which could interfere in God’s desires, and I’m laying both at the alter for him to address and remove in me. I want nothing more then to have a pure heart and use my gifts to serve the Lord versus promote myself or alternately not use my gifts out of fear. Don’t we all have to sort through these things as we expand ourselves in our spiritual gifts? I don’t ever want to be like the Pharisees selling in God’s temple or prostituting the gifts, which is tricky when you’re a prophetic artist, because one part of me wants to thrive with an art business and another part of me wants to use my art and giftings as a way to serve others in ministry. So God has to help me sort all this out. This is another reason why its so important for me to maintain a close and intimate walk with the Lord so I never get out of alignment or out of his will and desire for me…which if I’m not careful could potentially be so easy to do.

I would like to make this blog a place to collect the various prophetic words I have received, though, and be able to look them up or refer to them, because sometimes they build on one another.

I’ve been seeking to understand more details of my own prophetic lifestyle. Like I noticed that I get impressions in my spirt and that it moves me to write about it, most often. Its like the words of God will flow through me when I write. I do get visions, but less often. That’s what’s odd about me as a prophetic artist is that I don’t get a lot of visions. Most of my visions are like quick split second impressions, although once I went into a experiential encounter where I felt like I was there. I also have prophetic impressionistic encounters were I’m interacting with God, that last longer, but they feel like impressions in my spirit versus like I’m really there. I would like to feel like I’m really there some day. I also tend to be a prophetic “feeler.” In fact, I remember moving in that gift even as a teenager, because I was able to sense the emotions of others in my spirit and also how God felt about them. I also tend to have physical manifestations in my body when the spirit of God comes on me. Interestingly enough, I also remember my trauma primarily through my body. I’m very kinesthetic. Sometimes, I just have a sense of knowing about things. I’ve also had prophetic dreams off and on since childhood-major dreams of the end times, rescuing and hiding people, and fighting off demons. I was a spiritual warrior with a sword. I believe God has a deliverance ministry in store for me, and that these workshops are just the beginning! I want to see generational curses broken off and generational blessings released! What I’ve also figured out is that my life tends to be a prophetic illustration, and as I’m making the art often times that turns into an illustration as well. It will evolve or God will speak to me as I’m creating it. I like to start by playing and exploring versus having a prophetic vision like most prophetic artists, although occasionally it will happen that way. Sometimes God gives me just a theme.

I noticed that since 2012 God has done alot of signs and wonders in my life and there’s been patterns involving numbers and time periods etc, which may line up and coordinate with what God is doing with his church or this nation. It’s too much to go into detail now, but since the words can be interconnected, and sometimes I get them so early they are not even relevant at the time, I want to be able to look them up and connect them more easily here. For instance God started speaking to me about restoration is 2012 with a sign and wonder of $50 bill (which was ripped up and blowing in a hurricane and I found all the pieces and taped it together and spent it on art supplies), and although there’s been lots of restoration in my life, it seems as a nation we’re just now going into a season or era of it. But notice that number 10 there; its been 10 years since 2012 and we’re just now going into a season, a new era, of restoration and deliverance! That 10, I believe is important! It means double grace, maybe, and there’s probably more tied to it. Also tied into this is how God gave me a major vision of his outpouring when I was 50 years old, called the Overflow,

The Overflow

which I completed with alcohol inks. Now, 10 years later after the sign about restoration, I believe we’re going into a time of answered prayers and promises come true! My house was just one promise come true! I’m believing for a domino effect of promises come true! But what I’m also trying to say is that I believe there’s so much more prophetic mystery and significance then I’ve even been able to tap into and understand. Like God’s saying, “Come here. I have a bunch of puzzles and riddles for you to solve, and you can have as many as you can make the time to do!” I barely understand the interconnectedness of it all, but if I could put all the words and dreams in one place it would be easier-which is what I’d like to do here if I can just figure it out. There’s a dream I had in 2019 which seems to be coming more relevant now, too, but that’s a whole other story.

New art…Planted by Streams of Water, alcohol inks

A tree planted by streams of water. 9×12 alcohol inks on translucent yupo paper.

Tree Planted by Streams of Water

God dropped Psalms 1: 1-3 NIV in my spirit as I spent time with Him, questioning my fruitfulness among other things. You can say I’m going through a deep season of introspection. One thing he emphasized to me was that the “fruit” comes in its own season. Its not always right away.

I’ve often felt throughout my life that my labor was in vain and it that it didn’t yield fruitfulness in equal measure to my effort. In this season God is examining my heart. What beliefs am I holding onto which are not in agreement with his Truth and His Word? He’s shining his light of Truth deep in our hearts and asking the tough questions.

I hear God saying: Who do you say I am? Who do you really believe me to be for you? Do you believe that I am a good God?…that I love you as much as I love others? Do you really believe I am there for you and will take care of you?” Or did your trauma and broken heart keep me at a distance? Keep me from being involved in every aspect of your life? Do you believe me to speak a promise to you then take it back and change my mind? Do I ever lie? Do you really believe I can change your life and make it be all that I desire? Does your life bear fruit by your own efforts or by submitting to me through the power of the Holy Spirit? Who are you to question me, what I am doing in your life? Why it is taking so long? Don’t I know what I’m doing? Aren’t my ways higher then your ways? (Isaiah 55). Didnt I form you in your Mother’s womb?

Jeremiah 1:1 NIV
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”

Haven’t I set you apart? Don’t you delight yourself in me and meditate upon me and my will for you? I have made you righteous by my blood. I have paid the price for any way you fall short. I have made you a priest within my Kingdom (1st Peter 2:9) and have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy. Nothing will harm you. (Luke 10:19)

You are mine and I am yours.  You will yield the full measure of your fruit in due season. I am pruning away all the branches that do not bear fruit. (John 15)

Be encouraged that I am doing a deep work in you, rooting out all the lies, all the toxins, so that you will be able to understand the full measure of my love for you;  so that these lies no longer generate fear and hinder you. Its time to say goodbye to fear. I am exposing it for what it is. You will be set free. You are no longer a slave to fear (Galatians 4:7.) You are my child, and you shall bear much fruit.

Psalms 1:3 NIV
That person is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither— whatever they do prospers.

Abstract Approaches, Lesson 1, Part 1

Art class: Abstract Mojo.

Abstract Approaches, Lesson 1, Part 1

I’m taking a new art class called Abstract Mojo with Tracy Verdugo. Off and on over the last 2 weeks I have been working on the first lesson which is really a free lesson, called Abstract Approaches.

This lesson is not really part of the Abstract Mojo course; rather it is a prelude to it. I spent $200 for the entire Abstract Mojo course, and it is self paced. The lessons are done via videos and will not expire. There is also an online art community you can be a part of.

You can find this particular lesson here:

https://youtu.be/G4t40NX0QqQ

On March 31, 2021, I watched Abstract Approaches, Lesson 1, Part 1.

She asked us to create 15 pieces of artwork on smaller watercolor paper and work on all of them simultaneously.  I wasn’t sure about the size, but it looked like she was working with 5×7 inch papers, so that is the size I chose to work with. She had 5 across with 3 rows and a tiny space in between. She said create a list of words to act as prompts of things you want to convey, feeling words and art element words that are descriptive.

This lesson was all about contrast,  so for each word she asked us to write its opposite.  Then we simultaneously created the compositions on the watercolor paper using the words as prompts. Each piece should have contrasting elements so if you use straight lines, use curvy; use delicate with bold; detailed with loose; happy with sad, etc. Instead of a piece having half of each descriptive and half of the opposite, try 2/3 and 1/3 with the contrasts. She directed us to keep working and add various elements across the papers using different mediums. She started with charcoal. She used acrylic inks, heavy body acrylics, a gouache crayon, bamboo sticks, her fingers, large brushes etc. I like how she scratched into wet paint. She asked us to keep working and not to judge our art until we were done. She said at that point, you can always fix something that you don’t like.  She typically adds white last. She encouraged,”Don’t be afraid to be bold or even change or cover over parts you like.” She had deliberate lines, random lines etc. She experimented and was analytical at the same time. 

These are the words I chose:

Words:

Revival, extinguish

Birth, dying

Hope, despair

Order, chaos

Justice, injustice

Mercy, judgement

Spring, fall

Bright, dark

Colorful, black

Loose, tight

Protected, vulnerable

Green, red

Life, death

Purple, yellow

Holy, unsanctified

Glory,  dishonor

Curvy, straight 

Rough, smooth

Vague, detailed

Blooming, folding

Expanding, constricting 

Pink, light green

simple, complicated

Five, negative five

Teal, red/orange

Door of Hope

Door of Hope, digital mixed media. Created on 04.09.21

There may be updates to this later as God speaks to me more about it. I’m kind of tempted to do more digital work. This is a mixed media collage. Digitally, I just did did auto color adjustment and enhanced the contrast. I added the “Juno” filter from Instagram. It might be fun to do more with this, but its growing on me like it is.

Door of Hope- poem

Push through

Keep your eyes on me

Don’t look back.

Oh you weary child,

You’re a new creation

in a new season.

The old has passed away.

Press forward.

The hour is at hand

For your new land

is unfolding before you.

It awaits

It is taken by faith

Push through

Every obstacle,

Every delay.

Nothing can stop my plans.

You’re birthing the promises.

Don’t give up.

The hour is at hand.

You’re almost there. 

The door is before you.

Walk through.

Crossing the Jordan

Crossing the Jordan, digital mixed media created on 04.07.21.

I see us crossing from a place of hopelessness and despair to a place of promise; a place of answered prayers; a place of victory. We are crossing from a  barren, empty place of affliction and bondage to a place of freedom, bounty, and fruitfulness. 

After I made this spontaneous art piece I noticed the two blue, flowy lines like rivers, and God said, ” Call it Crossing the Jordan.”  If you remember in Joshua 3-5 God used Joshua to lead the Israelites out of the wilderness into the promised land, a land flowing with milk and honey. He had led them out of captivity and slavery when he parted the red sea, but because of their unbelief, complaining, and inability to seize the new land God was giving them, they ended up wandering in the desert for 40 years until Joshua led them into the promised land. They still had giants to fight in the new land, but this time through the faith of Joshua and Caleb they were able to hold onto enough faith to cross over. I think its remarkable that the ark of the covenant went first. To me, this symbolizes the promises of God and how God is always faithful to keep his word. God then parted the waters of the Jordan just like He did at the red sea. This time they really were able to cross through to the land of promises fulfilled.

May it be said that while it has been dry and barren in our circumstances like it was in that desert, God was busy planting many seeds inside of us. They were germinating deep inside of us, waiting for just the right time for the rains of God to come. With the latter rain God brings cleansing, healing, restoration, and revival. You.may not see the rain just yet, but I see the rain cloud! It’s coming! As God’s heavenly rain comes the seeds grow and multiply at an accelerated rate. With the rain comes the promises! We are crossing over into a land of plenty; a wide open space of freedom where promises are fulfilled.

Don’t give up hope. We’re at the threshold of victory. We are in labor with the promise. It is soon coming! God’s word has been sent out and it never returns void.

14 For this reason I kneel before the Father, 15 from whom every family[a] in heaven and on earth derives its name. 16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. (Ephesians 3:14-21 NIV)