A tree planted by streams of water. 9×12 alcohol inks on translucent yupo paper.
God dropped Psalms 1: 1-3 NIV in my spirit as I spent time with Him, questioning my fruitfulness among other things. You can say I’m going through a deep season of introspection. One thing he emphasized to me was that the “fruit” comes in its own season. Its not always right away.
I’ve often felt throughout my life that my labor was in vain and it that it didn’t yield fruitfulness in equal measure to my effort. In this season God is examining my heart. What beliefs am I holding onto which are not in agreement with his Truth and His Word? He’s shining his light of Truth deep in our hearts and asking the tough questions.
I hear God saying: Who do you say I am? Who do you really believe me to be for you? Do you believe that I am a good God?…that I love you as much as I love others? Do you really believe I am there for you and will take care of you?” Or did your trauma and broken heart keep me at a distance? Keep me from being involved in every aspect of your life? Do you believe me to speak a promise to you then take it back and change my mind? Do I ever lie? Do you really believe I can change your life and make it be all that I desire? Does your life bear fruit by your own efforts or by submitting to me through the power of the Holy Spirit? Who are you to question me, what I am doing in your life? Why it is taking so long? Don’t I know what I’m doing? Aren’t my ways higher then your ways? (Isaiah 55). Didnt I form you in your Mother’s womb?
Jeremiah 1:1 NIV
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”
Haven’t I set you apart? Don’t you delight yourself in me and meditate upon me and my will for you? I have made you righteous by my blood. I have paid the price for any way you fall short. I have made you a priest within my Kingdom (1st Peter 2:9) and have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy. Nothing will harm you. (Luke 10:19)
You are mine and I am yours. You will yield the full measure of your fruit in due season. I am pruning away all the branches that do not bear fruit. (John 15)
Be encouraged that I am doing a deep work in you, rooting out all the lies, all the toxins, so that you will be able to understand the full measure of my love for you; so that these lies no longer generate fear and hinder you. Its time to say goodbye to fear. I am exposing it for what it is. You will be set free. You are no longer a slave to fear (Galatians 4:7.) You are my child, and you shall bear much fruit.
Psalms 1:3 NIV
That person is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither— whatever they do prospers.